From my old blog - good to re-read and post again

Wednesday, August 31, 2005

my pictures

why do we need to get hurt?
for us to learn
experience the other side of life
can’t calm yourself
you look for an outlet
can’t be satisfied
try everything as much as possible
check for others
share sentiments
talk about it

there's a feeling of emptiness
can't focus and stucked
keep thinking the whys and hows
people around got hooked
don't know how to escape


Life is a matter of choice
Wherein suffering and happiness are optional
silly things, silly actions
it can be the right or the wrong one
Compromises and discipline will put into test
But it will lead you to where you’d wanted

***I’m not into poems, hate to read one, and don’t appreciate it at all, whoever the author is,
but I realized it’s a good start, to put what you feel into letters and in words.

your medium to release what you feel, tension, anger, depression, love and a lot more.

Composing poems now is now one of my hobbies, it gives me great feeling of contentment and satisfaction. Enormous emotions, coming out as i continually do and create. As I see the results, i learn to discover that i can do more and better. Aiming for more and higher, dreams, dreAms, dreams...
It's a feeling that i dont want to be stopped, enhance and not to disrupt. Continue and develop because it leads to fulfillment and gives me leverage.

why do we need to get hurt?
for us to learn
experience the other side of life
can’t calm yourself
you look for an outlet
can’t be satisfied
try everything as much as possible
check for others
share sentiments
talk about it

there's a feeling of emptiness
can't focus and stucked
keep thinking the whys and hows
people around got hooked
don't know how to escape


Life is a matter of choice
Wherein suffering and happiness are optional
silly things, silly actions
it can be the right or the wrong one
Compromises and discipline will put into test
But it will lead you to where you’d wanted

***I’m not into poems, hate to read one, and don’t appreciate it at all, whoever the author is,
but I realized it’s a good start, to put what you feel into letters and in words.

your medium to release what you feel, tension, anger, depression, love and a lot more.

Composing poems now is now one of my hobbies, it gives me great feeling of contentment and satisfaction. Enormous emotions, coming out as i continually do and create. As I see the results, i learn to discover that i can do more and better. Aiming for more and higher, dreams, dreAms, dreams...
It's a feeling that i dont want to be stopped, enhance and not to disrupt. Continue and develop because it leads to fulfillment and gives me leverage.

Monday, August 29, 2005

Why there are things that it so hard to understand?
It will just happen and come out when you’ve least expected it
Things will just pop up and will cause you to be depressed.
The bad thing is, it’s a feeling that won’t go away fast
Whether you like it or not, it will affect what you currently does.
.
You are feeling great and everything goes right.
Peak of love and nonstop exchange of sweet nothings
Tomorrow is a joint project you’ve prepared for
Promise to treasure memories forever
Happy and elated, but you don’t know what lies ahead.

You’ve done everything and it seems not enough yet
Why do we need to suffer and feel the pain?
If this is a lesson, it is surely a lesson learned.
Just so hard to accept the fact that it has ended so soon.
Feels like you’re hanging and nowhere to go
Certainty is not certain at all

Love is mysterious
Love is magical
Love can cause a lot of pain
Love is deceiving
Love will make you go crazy

That’s what love is.

Tuesday, August 09, 2005

hehe..i missed my blog huh! i am quite busy today, actually i planned to take a leave last monday, unfortunately i wasn't able to since i have unfinished report last week...so i need to catch it up first thing on Monday (yesterday). So, i'll schedule my leave again on Monday , have my teeth cleaned and checked if i can still kiss..hehehee...i feel like doint it..hehhe..just kidding. Anyway, i'll be leaving in a moment.

Wednesday, August 03, 2005

another day of fun and learning!

i've just attended i mean i was in a training today together with my buddy. although, my part is more on admin side...i've enjoyed the company and the experience. I am really flattered since someone in the group had a crush on me (*wink). I really didn't expect it, since for i know it was just a joke...but i know it is true. Anyway, on the side again, is that of course i've learned again from the group, i can say that they are intelligent and you will really learn from them and their dynamic is very unique. they really are gifted, but i don't feel anything againstthem, it's just that...i was happy for them. One more thing also is that i've again proven that i can do anything i can and i can be like them if i really ha to...it's just a matter of really doing it.
till next time.

Tuesday, August 02, 2005

what I discovered today? One thing I’ve just discovered is the blog…a blog may help me express my thoughts and ideas and at the same time it will help me develop my skills.
that I want to learn a lot of things and I am thirsty and hungry to learn new things. I believe it’s not yet late to start studying and start all over again. If I want to succeed I must do something that will increase my skills. I want to be a competent person so I must initiate doing things that will keep me competent.
I am now really starting to take things seriously on what I am doing, for example in reading…I just don’t want to read without comprehension. I must be able to fully understand what’s trying to imply. I don’t want to be a person of mediocrity. I want to be a competent and excellent person. And for me to do this things I have to grab the opportunity and time. I have to start now and religiously do it. No one will ever benefit with this but it will only be me, I know.
I want to earn more. I want to be financially stable. And for me to earn more I have to learn more, develop new things, language, widen my knowledge and skills. I won’t be staying on my comfort zone but rather take risks and learn to be responsible. Initiate things on my own, be assertive. I won’t be here for nothing so I have to think of things on how will I better and improve myself. I have to be focused on what I am doing…I’ve just learned from a friend that when you have a goal don’t mind the things you’ll encounter instead be focused on your goals and continue reaching it. Because whatever it takes it will lead you to where you’d wanted. Build up your mental assets coz this will be your ladder for success.

Monday, August 01, 2005

A brand new day!

It’s a Monday and another week full of learnings, fun, excitement and work of course.
What I’ve discovered today?
- I can listen to news whenever I want to, even though I am doping something
- that I can ask something within myself if what I value the most
I was able to watch some part of the Dead Poets movie and I really find it interesting. One quote says, live your life extraordinary. Simple but it has a profound effect once you take it seriously.
I wanted to take my week with a light heart, no worries, hatred and envy. Because I am a happy person and I don’t want to ruin it with simple and little things.

I was just a little irritated because I just can’t help but feel this thing…I mean…I didn’t mean it.
What I’ve done actually today is, I’ve worked almost 12 hours, I don’t know but I am comfortable doing it. And I am used to it now,
What I’ve done, this weekend me and my friend met for we haven’t seen each other for more than two months now and I enjoy being with her, converse with her again and I missed doing it. On the other side, I bought two dress so I will have something new. My mother also visited us,
Anyway, it’s getting late and I need to go home now…will be eating outside and besides it’s still raining, so I really need to leave now. Thanks god, I was able to open my blog again and post and share something new…It may be unorganized but I wanted to keep it that way. Kudos!!!

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